Something to spill

Hai honestly first I'd like to apologize if this time my words will be spilled out with a non barrier line which mean I will throw any word I prefer to use. I dont understand how some people can act rudely selfish like they owned you when in fact they did not. You know what my dear? The thing you think people give a shit about does not mean anything to them. You don't matter. You need to know what kind of value you are so you can save the worthy self of you from keep on being hammering by someone you hate just to make them feel satisfied because they has successfully knocked you down. Save your tears dearself, things will get better. Preseverance and patience come first. He will replace with flowers once this thing done and give the things you deserve.

People can be easy with you but try at least to put yourself on someone's shoes and stop pointing your finger to them. People that loved you, fought for you then you messed with it up and instead asking for apologize you thrown out a nasty stone cold move to them by keeping on bullied their mental. Oh yes you thought I didnt realize your dirty move? Well you better be aware with this because I did. I have my own way to get back the thing I deserve and should been received since I was little. You screwed it up, you put the burden on me. You buried me deep down under the shitty actions you have made. And you thought I forgot about that oh god sorry I don't and will never forget that. 

I suffered during my childhood, mentally beaten. I tried to do such nonsense thing where Allah would not let me get out from hell if I do, and when I told you about what you have put me through before, you did not give a damn about it. Hell screw you man. What the hell is wrong with your heart? Where the humanity in you? What the fuck is wrong with the god damn assets you store in your soul? Just to make sure it will not be running to me?  So that you can continually be selfish and ask me to accept your true color? I can accept you for who you are and indeed I expected you to do the same thing. Is it hard for you to commit? Is it hard for a grown up human to give respect to someone who younger than them? It will not slice your ego tho not even a bit. It will help you to mend the broken part of what you did to all of us. Be a human at least, have some respect to others and dignity. You dont live in this world alone but first I hope you find your own team to protect what its own and to fix all the thousand shits you have screwed up because honestly we are done fighting for you. 

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Maseh dah dtg nengok n singgah shini :*

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